i know ive been a little moody these days. I dont know why all those thoughts seem to gush into my brain, leaving you a little stranded. These thoughts may not be new and i get irritated by them too. Somehow, im still finding ways to make them go away. Maybe im just too emotional and afraid due to my past experiences. Maybe im having these thoughts because im still tormented by what ive been through before..

Ive been through deceit which i mistakenly thought was love.
Ive been kept in the shadows when i thought i'd be living a dream.

I know you are trying your best to comfort me. And trust me, youre doing alot for me already. You want me to let it out on you, instead of keeping it inside. But sweetie, i cant bear to do that. I'd rather cry myself to sleep than to let your heart be broken by my words. We've got a unique relationship and its something ive never dreamt of having.

Everytime i look at our pictures, i feel more than fortunate to be with you. Sometimes i blame myself for the little problems we've got. If i didnt have those thoughts, i wouldnt be crying all the time and you wouldnt be worried for me. But then on the other hand, you've been a great soulmate. Youve been doing countless sacrificial things to make me happy and you wouldnt expect anything in return. A little touch from you say so much.

I feel so ashamed of these doubts that sometimes, i wouldnt dare to look at you. I wanna say "I Love You', looking right into your eyes. I wanna see you every day and not feel like pushing you away coz im afraid id go too deep. I wanna hold your hand so tightly without having the fear of letting go..

The stupid things im doing and thinking about when im loving you.. I hope these things dont make you walk the other direction..

Im sorry.

i know ive been a little moody these days. I dont know why all those thoughts seem to gush into my brain, leaving you a little stranded. These thoughts may not be new and i get irritated by them too. Somehow, im still finding ways to make them go away. Maybe im just too emotional and afraid due to my past experiences. Maybe im having these thoughts because im still tormented by what ive been through before..

Ive been through deceit which i mistakenly thought was love.
Ive been kept in the shadows when i thought i'd be living a dream.

I know you are trying your best to comfort me. And trust me, youre doing alot for me already. You want me to let it out on you, instead of keeping it inside. But sweetie, i cant bear to do that. I'd rather cry myself to sleep than to let your heart be broken by my words. We've got a unique relationship and its something ive never dreamt of having.

Everytime i look at our pictures, i feel more than fortunate to be with you. Sometimes i blame myself for the little problems we've got. If i didnt have those thoughts, i wouldnt be crying all the time and you wouldnt be worried for me. But then on the other hand, you've been a great soulmate. Youve been doing countless sacrificial things to make me happy and you wouldnt expect anything in return. A little touch from you say so much.

I feel so ashamed of these doubts that sometimes, i wouldnt dare to look at you. I wanna say "I Love You', looking right into your eyes. I wanna see you every day and not feel like pushing you away coz im afraid id go too deep. I wanna hold your hand so tightly without having the fear of letting go..

The stupid things im doing and thinking about when im loving you.. I hope these things dont make you walk the other direction..

Im sorry.